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Friday, April 22nd, 2005
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6:38 pm
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"When you walk in and say good morning, and they say good morning back, it's Freshmen. When they put their newspapers down and open their books, it's Sophomores. When they look up so they can see the instructor over the tops of the newspapers, it's juniors. When they put their feet up on the desks and keep reading, it's seniors."
"When you walk in and say good morning, and they write it down, it's graduate students."
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| Monday, April 18th, 2005
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10:33 pm
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TOMORROW is FREEEEE cone day at Ben & Jerry's ...
Free ICE CREAM...
Free I tell you... ;)
Cookie Dough Ice Cream, Here I Come!!!
sigh
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| Monday, April 11th, 2005
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12:48 pm
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Don't let someone be your priority while you're only their option.
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| Thursday, April 7th, 2005
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11:09 pm
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After a while you learn the subtle
difference between holding a hand and
chaining a soul, And you learn that
love doesnt mean leaning and company
doesnt mean security, And you begin to
learn that kisses arent contracts and
presents arent promises, you accept losses with eyes wide open
and with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child
And you learn to build all your
roads on today because tomorrows ground
is too uncertain for plans. After a while
you learn that even sunshine burns
if you get too much.
So plant your garden and decorate your
own soul, instead of waiting for someone
to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really are strong,
And you really do have worth
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| Monday, April 4th, 2005
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2:29 pm
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| Thursday, March 31st, 2005
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2:21 pm - AHHH!!!!
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| Tuesday, March 22nd, 2005
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11:24 pm - What ever happened?
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Why do we ask questions that we already know the answer to?
Whats up? --nothing.
How are you? --good
…and then it justs fades away.
Ugh, frustrating. I need a new conversation starter.
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I learned a lot this week, but have forgotten most of it. This morning someone told me that I shouldn't try to change myself for other people, even if it does make them want to be closer to me. "To thine own self be true," and all that jazz. But if it's me that's constantly changing, aren't I staying true to, at least a fluid concept, of myself? BlagH!... here's me coming up with excuses for imitating the ideals of others to win their affection. The more I'm told to be content with who I am, the less difference I see between that and being happier with who I could be.
And that's what bothers me. I've been saying this for as long as I can remember, and I haven't grown at all. My entire philosophy as to why I keep trying to compare myself to other people hinges on this notion that no one could ever love me for who I am. But inherent in the word "I" is everything that sets me apart from those ideals I try to imitate - There are some things about me that I have never been able to change simply by trying to make people want me. I can't change the fact that I get jealous easily, that I like getting attention from certain people, that I like being missed and talked about, that I want people to place me on a pedestal... these, to me, are everything that makes me unattractive. It doesn't matter if I can say something to make someone blush, or if I know where someone's most ticklish, or if I'm turned on by the same things as whoever I'm trying to gain the affection of, because I'm still going to be an immature little girl about not being the favorite.
So... I need to grow. But it's not as easy as imitating the writing style of your ex. I don't know how to go about it at all, and everything tells me that it can only take time. Maybe that's what he meant this morning... if I'm going to spend time waiting to become someone I want to be, I'd might as well learn to be content with myself. Hmph.. I guess that's one more thing I've learned this week.
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You don't remember me, but I remember you
I lie awake and try so hard not to think of you
But who can decide what they dream?
And dream I do...
Life's so good, but yet there is something missing.
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| Friday, March 18th, 2005
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6:17 pm
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Eep. There really isn't anything to say!! I guess I'll just be a rebel and update, anyway.
The dance of the common man is oh so interesting.
I love it when the sun shines bright and droplets of rain spit onto my face. The world just seems glorious in those moments. I wish it could be like that all the time.
"There are always more fish in the sea."
I seem to be finding all of the gorgeous fish who deserve to be placed gently back in the water where they belong instead of taken away by yours truly and evilly. Well damnit, I'm about ready to overturn my boat, quit fishing, and take up something safer. Like wrestling sharks, for instance.
I'd wish that they were all reading this but fish can't read... can they?
Haha. Don't ask.
Hm...
I do not love you
because you are beautiful
And on another note... There are so many sick people in the world. How can an individual go around hurting others? It makes me sick.
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| Tuesday, March 15th, 2005
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5:24 pm
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Ticking Away Are The Moments That Make Up A Dull Day.
I failed my AMH midterm.
I have a 31 year old who wants to hang out. Lucky me.
Other than that, everything else is grand.
Tatania!!! Zac called me. ;)
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| Sunday, March 13th, 2005
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8:07 pm
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All I think about is you.
One more kiss could be the best thing.
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| Saturday, March 12th, 2005
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5:49 pm
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I've just heard the phrase today “why can't you just let it go?” I've heard it before, but it got me to think --- Why can't we? We’re always holding on, even if it is a little bit. The reason is if it ever really meant anything to you, truly meant something then you'll never be able to let it go completely. All we can do is try to forget it or submerge it as far back as we can. But it's only time till something comes up and just brings it all back . . .
It's weird how some people fit into a certain piece of your life and it's hard to imagine them in any other place other than the place where that piece fits. That piece is likely going to stay in that spot and it'll be hard to change, but yet it's so easy to lose a piece on the way.
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| Tuesday, March 8th, 2005
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2:20 pm - People get aggravated because I...
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...keep my feelings to myself.
Nothing is ever gained from sharing them.
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
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| Monday, March 7th, 2005
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7:06 pm
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I know I have made alot of mistakes, disappointments, and failures -- but I promise you there is a part of me that is [[ actually ]] worth keeping.
( Perfect Guy )
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| Sunday, March 6th, 2005
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7:04 pm
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When it comes to emotions I am the most confused person.
I don't know what I want anymore.
=0(
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| Monday, February 21st, 2005
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8:11 am
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What if you don't believe in LOVE?
What if you met someone whose meant to teach u how...
& you fall for that person
YET...
that person was meant only to teach you...
...and not to LOVE you....
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| Thursday, February 17th, 2005
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10:40 pm - Good Day, my loves.
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I decided to take out my nose ring. =0( Only because it some how fucked up when I had accidently pulled it threw my nose when I was really sick. And the skin around it messed up when I had popped it back through. So it is gone forever, I would rather have a normal nose, than a nose with a ring and an ugly pump around it, even though you could barely see the bump. I knew it was there and it just irked me. Besides, I can not get a job with it in anyways. So it is all in good favors I suppose. I am going to miss it. :0(
No call from Zac today. Loser! I really like him alot, but I realized perhaps I should stay away from him. He is an amazing person, but he doesn't go to college, and smokes waaaaaaay to much pot. And drinks waaaaaay to much during the weekend. He doesn't have a plan for the future or anything. He is just not going anywhere. Which is a terrible thing. But if I do continue to talk to him, I am just going to like him more than I do now, which isn't really that possible. AgH! Who knows. Ain't like I am going to marry the dude. I hope he doesn't stay in FLorida permantely though.
Tomorrow I have a big day ahead of me. I have THREE one hour online statistic lectures to watch. BLAGH! And a whole lot of reading to catch up on. I think it will be a starbucks day!!!
7 days until Spring Break. Still deciding on what I shall do. Beach, beach, and beach. Mostly is the plan, that way I can just relax and read and study for my exams. YES!! WHAT FUN!!!
Um... well that is it. I am getting sleepy. Today was a really long day.
you make me want to yell and frolic and sing, you make me feel weightless and infinite
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| Tuesday, February 15th, 2005
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5:41 pm - Dreams are strewn across the sand
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Wow...there are bad days, and there are good days. And then there are days that are so amazing you can't even compare them to other days...they just get pushed off the calander into a whole new set of amazing day-ness. Valentine's Day was finally simply the best. I got to hang out with the most wonderful person in the world who i thought I would have never seen again in my lifetime-- went to dinner with him, and recieved a dozen white roses as well. My sister and I both recieved a dozen red roses and giant teddy bears. Riiiight Tatania? ;0) It was great being able to spend it at home, the weather was AMAZING, however I didn't go to the beach, it was quite too hot to bare.
My sister lended me her car to drive. SHE IS THE BESTEST!!! MWAH!!! I owe you. :0)
Um... School sucks. I found out my Midterm for A.H. is after Spring Break. THANK GOODNESS. I don't think I am doing farely well in college. :0| I am not trying to my fullest extent. Which is terribly bad, considering I even know I am not trying. But for now on, I am going to give it 100% times 50 billion.
I'll make you a collage and paint you pretty pictures, photograph the truth and paste them to your door.
 
Look at my messy desk.
Spring Break: 9 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
UPDATE: Well, I went out tonight to some bar/club, and this way cute guy talked to me and bought me drinks and what not. OMG! So cute. RIiiight Hava? However, once again, the dude is from out of state. I must have tourist attraction written on my forehead, well he asked for my number and is suppose to come back down in March, so we will see what happens. And for the rest well, I'll just keep that on the hush hush. I need to go out more often, and be a wall person at clubs. Hahahahah. Pancake time.
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| Saturday, February 12th, 2005
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8:43 am - Pretty Damn Accurate.
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• Not the Good Kind is the song that matches with Zac.
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| Friday, February 11th, 2005
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4:57 pm
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He is back from Kentucky!!! The best news I have heard in forever.
But, of course, I am stuck in G'ville. Ft. lauderdale!!!
Well off to take a shower, and try to get rid of my headache.
Everything is just too stressful.
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| Thursday, February 10th, 2005
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5:34 pm - You count the minutes and I'll count the miles.
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We will never be farther than a short breath and a goosebumped shiver away.
Next time I ever meet someone from out of state, remind me to run the other way.
Tatania I just can't get over it. :0( Oh yea, Dan called me. I started yelling at him, and asking him why he was calling. He said he broke his leg by jumping over a fence. Stupidity. Bo didn't answer me, and I HAVE to ask him that question. ;0)
15 days until Spring Break. Hopefully I can make it into lots of fun, considering no other college has it the same time as UF. :0|
I can't wait for the weekend. I need to go out, have fun, and try to get things off of my mind.
Well, off to bed to get all warm under the covers, it is too damn cold up here. I so can not wait for summer to arrive. My favorite part of the year. It is simply amazing.
I'll develop the picture and watch you turn from blank to beautiful.
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